this one is for steeplechase

i had a weird dream last night. and it was also one of those dreams where you don't realize you woke up in the middle of it until several minutes after you wake up. know what i mean? then as the day passed i remembered more and more of it...which is odd for me. i quickly jotted down what i was remembering and decided to share since i haven't posted in awhile. so here's my dream...

i am out with a bunch of friends at someone's house. not sure who's house it is, but it's clearly someone we all know...to the extent that we're comfortable hanging out there and drinking. it reminded me a lot of gordy's old house. anyway...sizer, jordo & greg nuzman were there among others. at one point i put my hand in my pocket and find a prost! mark (plastic chip worth $3.75 at prost!). i have two at home so now i have three. then jordo walks up to me and says he has three prost! marks too...even tho i didn't say that i had three out loud. shortly after i realize the music playing is from john legend's newest album. i recognize the song and start to sing along kind of loudly...and in a better singing voice than i actually have. i'm also DD and decide i want to leave. i say something to the effect of "sorry if this is a dick move but i'm leaving now so you're S.O.L. if you're not ready to leave right now." as i walk out i see this girl i had been talking to in the house. she is sitting in the passenger's seat of a red sports car. i didn't get her number but am still too nervous to ask. i walk over and she rolls down the window. i ask her the name of the bar she works at and she rights "deliverance" on a napkin and hands it to me. and then i woke up.

i found it to just be odd in general...then especially odd at all the random details i remembered so vividly. and i don't typically remember my dreams. that's all for tonight. i know i haven't updated in awhile but it don't feel like making this a "hey check out this random dream i had/what's going on with me lately" entry. so just the weird dream for now...and if nothing else i hope this brightens your day and finds you enjoying a tasty lunch ;)

How I Met Your Mother

I love Mondays. At least lately. Mondays have meant putt putt, Heroes, How I Met Your Mother, and my new favorite show, Raising the Bar. It also can mean Prost! trivia night. For the second week in a row Drinks On The Links (DOTL) was canceled because of the nasty Monday weather we seem to keep getting. Well...I like the rain so I don't mind, but I would like to play our last round of putt putt in our super hero costumes so c'mon rain give us a break!!

Instead, because of the weather, I went to Prost! for trivia. I met my friend Jason there who's incredibly smart. Just the two of us and we finished tied for 2nd out of six teams. The winning team, who we only lost to by five points, had nine people on their team. So I felt pretty good about our performance, pretty happy with the tasty bier and pretty content with the rainy weather.

I also watched HIMYM and it dealt with significant changes facing the main characters. Most of them were moving: some were moving into a new home to start their new married life together, one was moving out of state (ok NJ is still close to NY but its NJ so...) to move in with his fiancee and her seven year old daughter, and the other was moving to Japan for a new job. They were packing up the apartment shared by three of them, and in the process ended up reminiscing about all the good times they shared in the apartment. So needless to say it got me thinking about how I'm preparing to move soon, start a new job (oh I hope that happens soon) and how many good times I've had in my current residence. I love to reminisce with friends about the good times we've had because it gives you a nice, natural high...that warm fuzzy feeling. And I like that feeling.

Looking back I remember: the numerous times people have slept in the Harry Potter closet, the countless games of HORSE in the garage with the Nerf hoop, the familiar games we've played, and the new ones we've come to love and/or invent (The The Game, Drunk Driver-High Jack, Celebrity, Three Man, Jungle Speed, etc), all the good men we've lost while struggling to fight the good fight...and win each round of Halo (hahaha), how hard we've rocked Guitar Hero & Rock Band, the silly fun we've had with the Wii and "cut the rope," mario kart, tennis, bowling and bungie buddies, the birthday parties, the impromptu luaus, the "for no reason other than its a Friday night" parties, the new friends we've made and the conversation we've had with them, the injuries we've sustained, the chairs we've broken (oh wait...that's just me :D), the way we all knew how to break in through the back door, the "gangsta" food we've eaten, the TV shows we've eagerly waited for and happily watched, the things we've built (and then had to watch them break because of freak garage door accidents), the pranks we've pulled, the movie nights we started...and never quite finished, the friends that have stayed the night/weekend, and the friends that we'll always have no matter where we live.

I do feel its time to move on, but these past 18 or so months have been a blast. I was talking about this to a friend the other day how there's always been "the boys' house" within our group of friends and how when Goldie Bear & I move out on our own...that won't exist anymore. First all four of us single (well one was engaged but not married so he's single for all intensive purposes) guys lived together in the Greenlake house. Man we had some good times there too. Fa sho. Then one of us got married, another engaged and married and the two remaining single guys have been living together at what has been the new version of "the boys' house." Its where we congregate, be around friends, be ourselves, and just have a good time. I hope that even without "the boys' house" we'll all still hang out just as much and form just as many good memories as we have at the other places. I hope we will and don't see any reason why it wouldn't continue...but it will be different and a little weird at first.

Life changes, so often and in so many ways, and I'm just grateful that while so much around us changes, that one thing has stayed the same...my Seattle friends. I have some great friends who don't live as close, and I love them just as much as my friends here, but in a different way. I've known this all along, but its just recently set in just how much they all mean to me. Part of it is time has taken them a little further away, part of it is some of them are temporarily hundreds of miles away on a cruise and I miss them, and part of it is I'm not sure how often we'll all be able to get together after "the boys' house" is no more. So to my Seattle peeps (and those two that fled the country then moved to Olympia :P), the longtime friends and the new ones that I've made recently...I love you all dearly and am extremely grateful to have you all so close and see you so often...even if its not always as often as I'd like :)

good stuff coming soon

sorry.

i know its been awhile since i've posted. i got some grief for this recently. i'm aware. i have started an entry on my trip to NYC that i hope to finish soon. i've been busy and/or hurt and/or its been too hot to do anything except sit in front of a fan. but i promise by week's end my NYC post will be up and maybe some other stuff too. maybe even Vegas pt. 3...which would just be amazing considering that's pushing six months now since i was there last.

:D

in the meantime here's a quick update: i joined a kickball league/team and our first game was this last sunday. had a blast but possibly pulled my right hamstring. it sucks. hard. its freaking ridiculously too hot right now. i'm a seattle area lifer so anything above 75 is too hot. above 85 is just mean. mean mean seattle weather. i mean i like it nice, but i also like to be able to enjoy it. damn sun. also i just finished my 6th punch card at prost! for anyone who cares/knows what that means.

ok time to pop some advil, ice up the hammy and go to bed. work tomorrow (but took today off to tend to the hammy and friday is the 4th of july so three day work week!!!).

jeah. go cubbies.

i have never know the like of this...

...I've been alone and i have missed things and kept out of sight but other girls were never quite like this.

Special thanks to The Beatles for that opening line. :)

this last week has been a jumbled journey of emotion...both in the highs and lows but also in the oddities and unique nature of my emotional hodgepodge over the past seven days.

last thursday started like any other (well except that i played hooky from work). ok so it didn't start like any other, but as is customary, i headed down to greenlake for some thursday evening frisbee. it was great. get to see friends. run around. play frisbee and awesomeness abounds. then, as is also customary, we head over to Prost! (my favorite bar in Seattle) for some tasty German biers. luckily for me, that's the night i met a friend of a friend. granted, we didn't talk much that night but i thought she was very cute and seemed totally chill. and she liked beer. so, win. win. win.

**funny side note: my friend told me she had two friends coming to meet us at Prost! and as i usually do (but rarely follow through on bc that's not what i do) i asked if her friends were single and if it was ok for me to "hit on" them. yes. i said "hit on." i know i'm terrible. so when one of her friends caught my eye i thought it was pretty funny bc of my comment before she arrived. go figure, right?**

so there that is. anyway. this new girl ends up coming to the impromptu party we threw on saturday, and this time i actually talked to her. a lot. and she is totally chill, totally hilarious, totally funny, fun, sarcastic, grounded, real, genuine, intelligent, adorable and a handful of other awesomeness. to keep a longer story short, we hit it off really well and i was downright giddy.

fast forward to today, when i saw her again for the first time since sunday (met up with some of her friends at a pub but i didn't get to talk to her at all bc of how the seats were arranged and how many people were there), and again i couldn't stop smiling at the thought of seeing her. over the last several days though, i've realized a few important things:

-she recently got out of a very serious relationship, so if we "hooked up" now i'd be the rebound guy...which is absolutely not what i want, and i hope the same goes for her.

-i definitely think there were vibes at the party, but she wants to be cautious bc we barely know each other and take things slowly (which i completely respect and understand).

-i truly believe that God and His divine intervention led her to me. if you know me, then you know i've never said anything like this before, but i sincerely believe it to me true now. i have not maintained the best relationship with God over the past two years and then this amazing girl enters my life and completely pinpoints exactly how i've struggled to find the balance between having fun and following Him.

-beyond that, there is something different and special about this girl. as yet, i have no idea how she is going to play a role in my life, but i do feel like i've made a fun new friend.

-as such, i am absolutely going to slow down, get to know this girl more and wait for her. i know i can do it. i know this bc the other night my friend said waiting for a girl is stupid, then his fiance (and the friend of this girl) was shocked at this response and said something to the effect of "so if i hadn't been ready to date, you wouldn't have waited for me?" to which he obviously had no reply bc his foot was lodged so far into his mouth. but when she said that, my very first thought was "yes, i can absolutely wait for her."

now i don't want this to sound like i've decided i'm going to date this girl (or rather that at some point she's going to come around and decide to date me) but rather i'm saying that the timing of the vibes is wrong, and i have the patience to wait and see if those turn into something.

its like this quote i heard in a movie (Evan Almighty actually) in which Morgan Freeman (playing God...hmmmmm) says something like this to one of the characters: "when a person prays for patience, do you think God gives them patience, or does He give them opportunites to be patient?"

right now i truly believe the second half of that line is totally true.